Breasts: not the easy solution they appear.

Recently, a blog follower asked me to describe some equipment important in baby rearing.  I'm 48 hours into my first baby, and for most of that time, my thoughts and actions, and those of my baby, have revolved around one particular piece of equipment that my parents gave me for free.

The equipment is my set of breasts, and they're at the center of my continuing struggle to feed my infant.  Prior to the birth, I knew that I wanted to breast feed, and I thought it would be simple, easy and straightforward.  It seemed like such a natural process, and looked simple in the books.

Now, 48 hours in, I'm seeing that breastfeeding isn't as simple as I originally thought it would be.  There are a two main reasons for this:

1.  Pain:  While feedings 1-3 were ok, I soon noticed a growing pain in my nipple when I put little James on to suck.    The helpers at the hospital told me that I was doing the feeding correctly, but an intense, very painful burning sensation began to occur when I put him on.  I don't mean a slight twinge.  I mean a sharp burn that continues to make me draw sharp breaths each time he "latches."  After my hospital experience (yes, I still refuse to go into details), I feel I have had enough pain.  Anyone who gives birth, in whatever fashion, must feel the same way: after our intense experiences, it's time for a peaceful, painless rest.

2.  Lack of independence:  I'm realising that it's such a shame that my husband, who is happy to help with baby maintenence tasks, isn't able to contribute to feedings.  The past 2 nights, I've seem him snoozing calmly while I've gotten very little sleep.  It's not his fault; my husband simply has no breasts!  (and it's a good thing, too, for other reasons.)  I'm quickly realising that this drawback will tether me to the child in other ways as well:  nights out with the girls won't be as possible, I can't just leave the baby with my parents, etc.

Finding a solution to this problem will be an incredible help.  I'm still exploring options, and I know there are several.

In the meantime, back to another painful feed!  (of course, little baby James is still always worth it...)